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Journal Entry: Mon Nov 19, 2007, 8:03 PM

hi everyone, sorry i have not been around as of late, i've had just a lot of stuff on my mind.
Been kinda busy working on overdue stuff and trying to color a few tings at once
including the avatard comic with *koalakitty23 and *Kitty-lynn
and its just been overall hecktic.
My brother has a new hearing at a new school, i hope to God it goes well cuz he needs to get out this house
and be in another enviorment...(for those whom don't know, my brother is a 23 year old with sever autisim)
hes been quite difficult to control lately and it really bothers me that my mom wont even try to consider other options for him
i worry about my brother a lot and i wish i could do so much more for everybody....
i almost walked out on my mother out of pure anger...i felt horrible about it cuz i wasn't thinking straight at all
im really am just sick of fighting with her everyday, its just really getting redundant and i hate fighting with her.
*sighs*

Also, i really feel that there's something wrong with me and i know i'm allowing it to happen.
i feel the way that i do cuz i feel sorry for myself all the time, i'm not taking care of myself,
i allowed myself to get in to a hole of depression when i should be stronger than that.
I really just have to take the courage to face things that i can change for the better and be a better person.
even knowing that it can be hard, even if theres day that i just hate myself, i just wanna grow and be sucessfull for once.

i know this all kinda random and im sorry.....sometimes i just hate keeping stuff bottled up. ya'know
thank you for reading.

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Mood: Tired
Listening to: "Burying Luck" by Minus the Bear
Watching: Project runway session 3
Playing: puzzle bee
Eating: rits crakers
Drinking: Diet sprite

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~CarnivalChild Nov 19, 2007, 8:10:17 PM

hey, at least you can admit that there's a problem. you've made a bigger step than most people ever manage.

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"You were once shoved headfirst through someone's vagina. Why are you acting so dignified?"
xkcd #291

~true-pain Nov 19, 2007, 8:19:32 PM

Well Ivy Think it's time you made things happen. You know do what you should be doing now in this period(age) of your life. Work, travel, experience new things,etc. Life is an adventure and when ya see everybody else moving to do new things with their lives, ya feel left out or better said just missing out on what should be yours. I don't know what that is in your case, but it's time you should chase your dreams cause your not gonna be young forever and the world isn't gonna wait for you. I talk from experience. Please take my advice. Be apart of your family, but also move on.

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~true-pain Nov 19, 2007, 8:20:34 PM

God bless you and may he show you the way to be free.

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*Letdragon Nov 19, 2007, 8:20:50 PM

Nice to hear from you at least

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Now playing: Atelier Iris 1 and Magna Carta 2

Hoping to play: Eternal Sonata and Tales of Vesperia (PS3)

*koalakitty23 Nov 19, 2007, 9:19:20 PM

I'm really sorry that you've had to go through so many things. I know it has to be frustrating...especially emotionally. You know that if you ever need to vent or talk or whatever, that I'm here. I just wish I could do more for you than listen...because I don't feel like that's enough. I wish I could help you in some other way :/

You are an amazing person with a huge heart! And you deserve so many awesome things. I hope everything starts getting better for you soon and like...new doors open for you :3 Thank you so much for everything you've done, are doing and continue to do. I'm glad we met up and I hope we can have many more adventures together!

-clings-

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Tell me what you got to break down the walls...you just might need dynamite.

=notveryathletic Nov 19, 2007, 9:22:33 PM

~TheTaintedRose Nov 19, 2007, 10:26:21 PM

Hey. Depression can be a deep trench to climb out of. If you ever need a hand, or at least an ear/shoulder etc, feel free to borrow one of mine. I'm getting out of that myself and... well, it may not be the best help, but if a fan can do something, then so be it! ^_^
Drop a line, give a shout or rant if you ever need!

~Lazy-chicken Nov 20, 2007, 12:34:55 AM

*presses thumps and toes*

I wish your brother luck with the hearing...and that you're going to feel better soon.

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~fronteraster Nov 20, 2007, 1:21:02 AM

*hugs* Buen choice.

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Journal History

Dec 11, 2009 :: Kaisen this Sunday::
Oct 30, 2009 :: Inactivity ::
Apr 17, 2009 :: Officially Jobless ::
Oct 26, 2008 :: Picking up the pieces ::
Oct 19, 2008 :: 7:57 am ::
Oct 5, 2008 :: Back at work till december ::
Jul 19, 2008 :: It's been a week ::
Jul 13, 2008 :: noticias ::
Jul 3, 2008 :: Back From AC08 ::
May 15, 2008 :: guess im still here ::

Should i do more vector stuff?

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~Sigeram: <3 you
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~rotsentu: shout at the devil!!!
Fri May 16, 2008, 3:20 AM
~Badimo: <3
Wed Nov 21, 2007, 3:20 PM
~0xanathos0: Yer the best ivy, kust wanted to point that it (as if I had to cause it's quite obvious that you rule )
Sun Aug 26, 2007, 6:22 AM
~KoraggRules: Your The Coolest Ivy And Its Great That We Are Friends
Sun Aug 26, 2007, 4:30 AM
~casanonva130: what dont kill you, makes you stronger, "go for it girl"
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~BadStar64: Don't Stop ur colors are amazing!!! Pleeze keep going!! I work and draw... Keep ur dream alive. Don't give up. Keep on pushing.. Do what makes you happy!! I draw everyday! I have alot of shit to do but Its a part of me. As it is You Ivy B.. Hit Me Back. T
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~bigtimennotime: Ivy, I hope it all goes well, but I'm going to need a colorist in the next 4 to 6 months for a comic project. Your stuff is great so let me know when you settle in, and let's get started.
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~Neon-Grizzly: I <3 You! ^_^
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